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Friday, December 09, 2005 Ok so my friend and I have started a fun new website called, Dear Suckers. It's pretty much just me and Jason writing complaint letters to different people and things. Anyway, you can check it out if you'd like and if not that's cool too. Goth Girl 2:49 PM Wednesday, December 07, 2005 Sometimes I get really frustrated. I'll be honest I don't have many friends. I'm pretty shy so in general I have a hard time getting to know people. Most of my good friends are people I met online. For some reason I come out of my shell easier when I don't have to talk to someone in person. I don't know what it is really... I mean I guess I'm just kinda introverted ya know? When I was a kid I was even worse. Even at family gatherings I would usually keep to myself. With a book in hand I'd sit in the corner until somebody decided to come over and chat. LOL, I was a total book worm. One year I had broken my hip and had to spend my lunch hours in the library so I wouldn't get hurt on the playground. It was fun for me since I loved to read so much. Though it did nothing for me socially. I guess the real reason why I'm afraid of people is I always feel like I say the wrong things... Like, no matter how hard I try I can't get across my meaning. I think I'm pretty intellegent too (not to sound vain), so I don't think that's it. People just make me nervous. My family was really consious of what people thought of them and wasted no time in informing my siblings and I that we were to be above reproach. That we should be better then the norm... which is sad. I'm trying to get beyond bitching about my family but it's hard not to... I was talking to my dad a few weeks ago about stuff. We got on the subject that I have this issue where I'm kinda afraid of when things are going good. Instead of enjoying success I'm looking for what's going to go wrong. Sometimes it even seems like I set myself up for failier cause I can't deal with anything else. Like, for example, I'll take on some impossible task, like doing a large complicated oil painting in less then a week. Now ya'll may not know about how oils work.. but they take FOREVER to dry. You have to be patient with them or it just turns into a big mess. Now this drive hasn't always been a disadvantage. A lot of times I end up doing things that surprise me cause I set my goals so high. My father though thinks there's a root to the problem that I need to find though. I can't even imagine what it is but I guess it's something I'll have to work through. I don't know why I thought of this today. Prolly cause I bought a new philosophy book because I'm going to do a study on that soon. I don't know. lol. Funny how the mind works. Thanks again for listening to me rant, those of you who could get through it. Goth Girl 12:09 PM Monday, December 05, 2005 This is the Random Blog... I'm trying to test some shit out on here.. I miss having photoshop on my main computer... I ate too much this evening... That is all.. Goth Girl 6:53 PM The Frug. And I can do the frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf And I can hate your girl I can tell you that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love And I can do the frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf And I can watch TV I can shuffle off to Buffalo I can do a backbend I will not call you back And I can start a book I can make some mac and cheese I can sleep twelve hours You'll never see my eyes Chorus And I can hate your girl I can tell you that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love You'll never see my eyes I will not call you back I cannot do the smurf I cannot fall in love I'll never fall in love I cannot fall in love... Chorus I think this song is about stripping.. That's pretty damn cool if you ask me. Goth Girl 1:02 AM Saturday, December 03, 2005 So like yeah. I'm really funny about food. I crave things really bad sometimes. Like mostly tacos. I always want tacos. Back in high school I remember more then once I would only eat Mexican food for like a week. We're talking breakfast burritos and enchalatas and rice and beans... Yeah that's the stuff... mmmm... Goth Girl 8:21 PM Friday, December 02, 2005 So I got going on my Christmas shopping today. I've been planning and plotting for a couple weeks what I was getting everyone and now I'm confedent in my choices. I haven't bought anything for the boys yet but I want to talk to my husband about that first. He doesn't really care what I get for the other kids in the family but our own. I'm about half way through my list. Most of the problem is that I'm doing a dvd for the grandparents/parents of my kids this year and I'm not done with that yet. I need to get on it though because I'm really scared about shipping this time of year and want at least two weeks for it to get to my house so I can wrap it up. :) Anyway, as you can tell there are a few changes around this joint. I'm going to try to be more attentive to it. I just get to doing other things. Speaking of which... Here's my deviant art site. It has some of my paintings and photoshop creations on it. Well I guess that's it for now. Goth Girl 7:21 PM Thursday, December 01, 2005 Yes.. I am lazy DEAL WITH IT!!!! JK, I don't know. I think I don't come out of photoshop all too often these days. Not to mention there are wee things that try to take up my time... damn wee things... Those little life suckers!! Anyway... I think I'm going to change the layout in this place. It's all f-up when I look at it... like cock-eyed... it's really irratating... Random Rant... I enjoy hanging upsidedown until I start to feel faint... however I don't like when I actually pass out. Damn Communists... Goth Girl 10:26 PM Sunday, August 28, 2005 So I've said before I'm quite a bit of a sw fan. I get teased by my husband relentlessly for it. I go to fansites, I'm a member at a very large sw forum, and yes I have a paid subscription to sw hyperspace. I like sw toys and I'm thinking about making my own Jedi robe for holloween (hey at least I have a somewhat practical reason for it). Anyway, I've been spending a lot of time with my chums at nightly lately. They are cool cats. I like them. Elsewhere in my galaxy.... I think I'm in love.... with this new garbage CD!!! I really like it! Special thanks to my friend Brad for the recomendation. I listen to it all the time. I had a Mike's again tonight. I hate the after taste. It's soo gross. I don't know how ya'll who drink beer and stuff can handle it. I'm not at all ashamed to say that I really don't care for anything but the "girly" stuff. I used to like the other stuff back when I thought it was cool to drink but I think I must have gotten too drunk to notice the taste before. I'm not much of a drinker anymore anyway. I got into trouble from the stuff so it's not something I tend to do very often. But that's another story.... and it's not a happy one so it's not for this blog!! LOL. I watched Moulin Rouge today. I just love that movie. The overall feel of the film is just increatible. The way the music, colors, and effects blend together, it's just.. FANTASTIC!! I think I shall watch it again tonight. So like I'm feelin' kinda silly tonight so I think that will be it from me! laders, ladies and gents (if it so happens that gents read me blog!) Goth Girl 11:32 PM |
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